God has great plans for you!

Can you believe 2015 is pretty much gone!  I know everyone is working on their goals for 2016 but can I give my 2 cents!  Before setting those goals...

A new year is a good time to sit and reflect the year past.  Reflect on things in life that went well, went awesome and of course went terrible wrong.  Reflect on the good, the bad and even the ugly!  Everything that you reflect upon can be used to build you stronger!  Then seek God and ask for help in setting this new goal for 2016.  He might surprise you in what He sees in you! Don't make this long list of things you feel you must accomplish in 2016.  The truth is, if you make a long list - there is a good chance it will stress you out.  

So my 2 cents is...seek God first and then set your goal!  If you are truly seeking His will, remember He desires you to be happy but He is able to see so much more in you than you will ever see!  So be ready because boy does God have something cool planned for you!

A week on new things!

I have so much on my heart and I truly do not know how I am going to share it all with you lovely ladies (this will be a long one)! 

First on my heart:  These past few months have been an up and down battles for our family.  Our family has been under attack and it has not been fun BUT God is good (that is what I keep repeating)!  So through these ups and downs my quiet time has been up and down, its funny how the two go together for me.  Ladies I have officially been spiritually drained!  My way was not working and God knew this (I didn't but God sure did)!  A dear sweet friend suggest a podcast one night and I was very anti-it.  I am a reader I keep telling myself, I don't do podcast.  The next day I sat with my coffee and by bible and by books and of course nothing - I could not focus!  Wouldn't you know I ended up finding the podcast my dear friend suggested and lets just say I am hooked!  It is funny how God knows what we need before we do!  Then another dear friend was talking about a radio station that I had never heard of before and it had speakers and what not.  Yesterday I am in my car just battling my spiritual walk (I am drained ladies drained I say) and decide why not!  I turned the station and was over the moon blessed.  Can you believe I had to actually change the station because of the tears!  Again God is good!  For me, many times I get so complacent that I refuse to look for other things.  It is vital that we surround ourselves with Godly ladies (I didn't say perfect but dear friends that are truly desiring a relations with God).  Once you find these friendships (that God has placed in front of you) we all must learn to share!  Ladies NONE of us have it together!  NONE!  These friendships WILL help you grow and show you new things but we must be open to them and not refuse them. 

Second on my heart:  I am reading the book Circle Maker, today I took the first official step in making an official circle.  I have been circling everything in prayer but not physically.  I have created a mirror of prayer to help me remember every time I walk into my bathroom, to pray!  Today God truly prompted me to try something new (it has been a week of new things for me!).  I was doing my cool down after my run and I started going through my list of prayers that I have been circling.  It dawned on me that all my prayers have to do with what is inside my house - husband, job, kids, family, spiritual growth, financial!  So I started, started walking around my house (did I look for neighbors...Yes...did I feel kind of silly...YES).  Let me tell you about the chat I had with God!  I truly feel Gods presence with me today!!  Every pass I made, my prayers got stronger and stronger!  We MUST circle our life in prayer ladies!  Today my heart learned a little bit more to fear of God (as I tell my kids, a fear of amazement of who GOD is).  I opened my eyes a little bit wider today and saw how great and mighty He is!  He is God the creator of all!  Nothing NOTHING is out of His reach!  There is no wrong way to prayer ladies!  Prayer is simply a conversation with God.  Yes God knows what is heavy on your heart BUT He desires you to come to him and share! 

Finally, Ladies this life comes with many challenges to it.  I encourage you today to surround your self with the right ladies who will bring you encouragement, uplifting, desire to be better and a longing for a stronger faith!  Our friendships should push us past our comfort zone and help us to see God has bigger plans for us.  I am sorry for the long blog today but God has put so much on my heat today!  I just felt I needed to share it!  Remember that God has already walked where you are right now, He has already been there and is back by your side.  Remember to keep your eyes open and focused on HIM!  I hope you know how deeply you are loved and desired!

Holiday Time!

I wanted to encourage you ladies for just a second.  This is not going to be long, simply short and sweet! 

Holiday time can be very emotional for many of us.  I simply want to encourage you beautiful ladies to draw close to your Heavenly Father during this holiday time because it can and will at times pull you down.  Your Heavenly Father has surrounded you with strong friendships for a reason - LEAN on them!!  Don't ever feel like a burden to your girlfriends because God has blessed you with them!

Two Simply Tips!

My first tip is...Don't Don't Don't walk through these next few weeks alone!  You have a Heavenly Father who is with you but He also knows you need physical interaction as well!  Reach out to your girlfriends, sister, brother, mom, dad, Aunt, Uncle...who ever God has given you to be that amazing supporter!  This time of year can get overwhelming, stressful and emotional all at the same time.  Don't try to carry it all by yourself - it CAN NOT be done.  It does not mean you are weak...it means we are strong!

My other tip is...don't feel obligated to do everything!  Yes we are women who feel we can do everything...guess what we can't!!  Let your husband or teenagers or boyfriend or best friend - whoever your HELP ME person is - step in for you.  Let them help with the baking, wrapping, shopping (yes I said shopping - they can buy gifts too.  This is hard for me because I am a control freak!), cooking, addressing envelops, dropping packages off at the USPS or UPS, cleaning the house....do you get what I'm saying!  We CAN NOT do it all!  It is hard to let go of control but in the end it will still turn out just fine!  

Beautiful ladies listen up...we are not meant to walk through this life alone!  Stay connect with your Heavenly Father and lean on the ones who love you the most!

Happy Thanksgiving and Merry Christmas! 

Where did that storm come from!

How many of us have been on or are in a path (storm) that you absolutely can not figure out how you got there?  If you could see me I am raising both hands right now!  How does life take such a left hand turn sometimes has been my main thought the last month.  I am not going to lie to you ladies, but my families path (storm) right now - it's hard and it sucks!  Today has been a day of tears for some odd reason (we will get back to this comment).  My family and I have been in this storm for a little over a month and ladies its just getting started!  I just can't see the end and I want to!  Is anyone else out there fighting a storm - you are not alone!!  For me and my husband our storm is our girls right now.  If I am being honest, I think the tears today are just God's simply reminder that he keeps telling me that He's got this!  He has them!  He is with them!  He loves them!  He is for them!  He is I AM!!! 

Ladies when we are caught in a storm and are trying to figure out how it began, we begin to focus on the wrong things.  We start rethinking decisions or choices we made.  We start just simply second guessing life in general and we loose site of what is clearly right in front of us...God!  Some of our storms CAN NOT be fixed by us.  Sometimes we MUST take a hug step back and say "Okay God, I don't know where this storm is going or how it even began or how long it is going to last but I MUST give it to you and let you lead"!  I know you don't have to tell me this - it's to hard to do this!  But honestly I think that is the point of my continue down pour of tears today, God is lifting this storm from my shoulders and placing it on HIS!

God is far more interested in teaching us to hear His voice

than making our plans unfold flawlessly.

"My Story"

Big Daddy Weave

If I told you my story
You would hear Hope that wouldn't let go
And if I told you my story
You would hear Love that never gave up
And if I told you my story
You would hear Life, but it wasn't mine

If I should speak then let it be
Of the grace that is greater than all my sin
Of when justice was served and where mercy wins
Of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in
Oh to tell you my story is to tell of Him

If I told you my story
You would hear victory over the enemy
And if I told you my story
You would hear freedom that was won for me
And if I told you my story
You would hear Life overcome the grave

If I should speak then let it be
Of the grace that is greater than all my sin
Of when justice was served and where mercy wins
Of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in
Oh to tell you my story is to tell of Him

This is my story, this is my song
Praising my savior all the day long
This is my story, this is my song
Praising my savior all the day long

For the grace that is greater than all my sin
Of when justice was served and where mercy wins
Of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in
Oh to tell you my story is to tell
For the grace that is greater than all my sin
Of when justice was served and where mercy wins
Of the kindness of Jesus that draws me in
Oh to tell you my story is to tell of Him
Oh to tell you my story is to tell of Him

This is my story, this is my song
Praising my savior all the day long

 

Seriously!

Okay ladies how many of you have had those days, weeks, months that you are ready to throw in the white flag?  I have officially had my SERIOUSLY I am done month.  If my main goal for this blog is to share ups and downs and be real to help women connect and not feel alone then I must share my past month.  I know all of us have had these days, weeks, months and sometimes years.  So I hope this is uplifting and helps you see that you are not alone we all have days where we throw our hands up in the air and yell "SERIOUSLY" I can't take any more! 

Last month started of normal (well normal for this family), but it soon went down hill fast.  My month pretty much consisted of me getting the flu for the first time ever, my very first mammogram (which lead to more test and more test and in the end all was good), health issues on both sides of our family (a mom who has been battling breast cancer for many years and everything took a sharp turn and a father who battles heart problems and those problems took a sharp turn), teenager issues (issues my husband and I never thought we would be focusing on), and a husband who carries it all on his shoulders (my husband just wants to fix everyone and carry all of us through life)!  Yep I can truly say I do not want to EVER relive this month...I said ever!   So the question that keeps coming up in my head daily this past month was "how much more?"!

How did I survive my "SERIOUSLY" month:

*  A husband who is constantly standing by and support his family and seeking God

*  An amazing sister who listens and prayers

*  Surrounding myself with godly friendships (friends that God truly placed in m life)

*  Overall - trusting in God even when the trust is hard and seeking Him daily even when I didn't want to

Everyday life is usually busy for everyone but when new things pop up on those normally busy, crazy and sometimes stressful days it is hard.  Ladies we MUST make a choice daily and that choice is to seek God.  This is not a guarantee that life will be wonderful but with this choice we will know that God is walking it with us.  That God believes we have the strength to endure it and survive it.  This past month has been one I truly wish to forget but as I look back I can truly see how God was preparing me for the massive speed bumps that were coming, He was preparing me!  What an amazing feeling to have!  God loves us and he wants to give us the tools to fight and be strong!  I have been reminded often this past month that God is always preparing us and is teaching us for the speed bumps that He knows are coming.

I know I probably sound like a broken record but it is a choice that we must make a choice to seek Him daily with our life!  Seek Him first daily, allow your husbands to support and help carry your burdens (God has given our husband amazing strength),   keep your family relationships Christ focused and seek those Christ centered friendships that are needed in our daily lives!   

Casting Crowns - Just Be Held

I heard this today and it really just touched my heart.  I wanted to share it mainly because we ALL have things in our lives that we try hard to hold onto and with that said we ALL desire to be held.

"Just Be Held"

by Casting Crowns

Hold it all together
Everybody needs you strong
But life hits you out of nowhere
And barely leaves you holding on

And when you're tired of fighting
Chained by your control
There's freedom in surrender
Lay it down and let it go

So when you're on your knees and answers seem so far away
You're not alone, stop holding on and just be held
Your worlds not falling apart, its falling into place
I'm on the throne, stop holding on and just be held
Just be held, just be held

If your eyes are on the storm
You'll wonder if I love you still
But if your eyes are on the cross
You'll know I always have and I always will

And not a tear is wasted
In time, you'll understand
I'm painting beauty with the ashes
Your life is in My hands

Lift your hands, lift your eyes
In the storm is where you'll find Me
And where you are, I'll hold your heart
I'll hold your heart
Come to Me, find your rest
In the arms of the God who wont let go

Do you look tired?

This blog might be off the beaten path but again just trying my best to be real and hopefully this will help and encourage some of you ladies out there!

Last night while sitting at our daughters high school volleyball game a sweet friend came over to say hello.  Automatically we both asked the question "How are you?".  My reply was "I am just really tired".  Her response was "You look really tired".  She honestly did not mean any ill or bad feelings with her commit.   She truly was showing concern ad wanted to know why I looked so very tired.  Later that night I truly reflected on our conversation and I asked myself - Why do I look so tired?  What have I been doing to myself to look tired? 

This is what hit me - I took a break from God.  I was letting the downs get to me.  We have had over the last few weeks family health ups and downs (on both sides of our families), busy work schedule (not being able to spend time with our family), of course the good old money problems, busy kids schedule, ups and downs at work (bringing it home with you), and honestly time (never enough).  Trust me as I write these many things they seem small to what is going on in this world, but we must remember God cares dearly about our ups and downs...they are not small to Him because they are big to us!   So honestly I took a break from God and mentally checked out.  I let the downs start to get to me.  So my way of taking care of this was to stop my quite time, not going to the women's bible study, make up excuses for not getting together with uplifting friends, didn't get my workout in and let my eating go to the way side...do you see the pattern!  I thought a break from God would be good an allow me to refocus, seriously who thinks like this!  Apparently me!

So today I started my God time again which lead to me wanting to get my run in, wanting to eat good (to feel good), wanting to get work down, wanting to have the house looking nice for my loved ones, wanting to focus on Him in me not me!  We can do so much with Him!

(I feel like my blog are all kind of the same but if you really look at life we are always having ups and downs and always battling letting God have them and having peace with them...it is a constant battle that I truly hope one day I can give to Him 100%) 

    

To many doors!!

Those who live in the Shelter of the Most High,

Will find rest in the shadow of the Most High. 

Psalm 91:1

This verse came up today in my "Calling Jesus" devotional.  I thought it was very relevant for what Adam (my husband) and I have been walking through. 

How many times have you asked God to just open some doors in your life.  Well I must say, be carful for what you ask for!  Let me back up just a little for you. 

For the past almost 3 years Adam has been working two jobs to support our family.  This allows me to stay at home with our 3 childern and have a small part time job from home.  Over the past few months I have been praying and asking God for some guidance when it comes to Adam's part time job (which honestly has slowly become a full time job) as far as physical stress and his mental mind set.  I think like many wives out there, I often feel bad that I stay at home while he goes out and works his tale off to provide for us.  I often tell him how bad I feel and his response always is "this is what I am suppose to do and I do not mind".  So I started really praying and seeking God for guidance for his jobs.  Just overall asking God for His guidance for Adam and strength for Adam.  He works so hard for us!  Now back to the present. 

So unbeknown to me, Adam has pretty much been praying the same thing (this could be double trouble).  Well lets just say there is truly power in pray.  God has just been showing Adam and I door after door (3 to be exact).   So you would think this to be a good thing, right?  Well just because doors appear doesn't always make life any easier.  Honestly over the last week or so it has honestly made our live a little bit harder.

Sometimes when given a door you automatically think "oh I need to open it and walk through it because that is what I have been praying for"...am I right!  So over the last two weeks, Adam and I have seen these 3 doors and of course since we have been praying for this it means one of them is our answer!  Truly this was our mind set.  We both thought, truly we have been praying and now God has given us these doors!  But over the two weeks these doors have appeared our lives have begun to carry a stress that neither one of us could understand.  Doors are suppose to be good things!!  Why the stress!

Bottom line is, just because a door appears does not mean we are to open and walk through it.  For us, these doors have truly been (we feel) God showing us He is there, He is listening, He is in control, He will provide, He will lead the way and He has a plan.  Over the last two weeks Adam and I thought for sure one of these doors was it, we lost all our focus and really began to question God (which is where the stress came from).  We started making the doors work for us, started questioning God because there was no clear answer.  Then one morning I texted Adam Psalm 91:1 and his response truly showed me that God has great plans for my husband.  He said "Doors closed I think, I am now focusing on His plan instead of trying to figure it out myself"!

Doors = Faith

We just have to be willing to understand that it is God's plan not ours.  His ways are better than ours!

Whats on your heart when you wake up?

Today I wanted to share with you from my journal.  This is just a little something that God put on my heart this morning and wanted to share.

For the past two days I have had this is on my heart singing it when I wake up.

 

"At the cross at the cross I surrender my life - I'm in awe of You I'm in awe of You

Here my faith will stand here on solid ground here I bow down here I bow down"

 

It doesn't' take a rocket scientist to tell me what God is placing on my heart.  I have never in my 40 years ever heard God speak.  You hear all these stories from people that actually hear Him!  I use to get rather jealous (even though I knew my life was and has never been connected to God like these dear friends).  But reality is, God speaks to his children in different ways, He use our sometimes weakness and our strengths to get our attention.  And I must say music is a strong hold in my life.  This has not been the first time I have woken up with a song in my head...BUT this is the first time I have waken up (for days in a row) with a song on my HEART!

Thank you Lord Jesus for always taking time for me!

 

 

Now lets back up a few weeks. I have been reading Letting it Go and honestly thought "okay I need to let go of my past"!  Well its funny what God has in store sometimes!  As I began reading this book God put a very heavy thought into my lovely heart "Heidi you have no past issues!  You use your past as an excuse to allow these areas in your life - jealousy and envious" - trust me this hurt a lot!  And honestly after taking a few days of praying on my knees, He was so very right!  But here is the good news -  He can take our weakness and use them for His good!  And over the past two days waking up with this song so heavily on my heart, I feel God truly helping me with these areas.  BUT it is a daily struggle!!  Yes I said DAILY!  We must CHOOSE (the word that is so hard for me) to allow Him help us!  Let go of the control! 

 

I'm sorry this post is kind of all over the place but I truly feel God put it on my heart and I had to share.  Over the past four or five days I have sat to blog and I have had no internet...God...I think so.  He had other plans.  I just truly want to be real and honest.  We all struggle with areas of our lives and that is okay, we just have to remember God loves us and everything that is in our lives He can and He will use!!   

How do you see yourelf?

At bible study this week we chatted about the love of our Heavenly Father!  The love that he has for his daughters!  Yes I said daughters!  Jesus is our Heavenly Father so that would make you his daughter! 

How many time have you beat yourself up about a decision you've made or a choice that didn't go exactly how you saw it in your head.  Have there been days you feel like you just keep failing at everything you do or nothing you say will ever be enough.  How does this make you see yourself? For me, I just start tearing everything apart about me one negative thing after another.  Once (I know for me) we hit that wall it is very hard to see the positive in us.  We are always our worst critics!

You know what is amazing!  When we are beating ourselves up Jesus is praising and loving on us!  When we are calling ourselves a failure or worst mom of the year or worst sister of the year, he is saying you are strong, you are lovely, you are desirable, you are beautiful, you are caring, you are compassionate!  When we beat ourselves down - do you think that is the work of Jesus?  NO!  Soooo if he doesn't beat us down why do we!?!?  He will NEVER say anything negative about his daughter!  He will NEVER!!  He loves us and wants to build us up!  So if he wont say anything bad or negative why do we! 

So what do we do with these negative thoughts about how we see ourselves?  Let me tell you I am a big big big work in process in this area!   Jesus has given us many tools to help with this area of our lives.  His Word - we need to be in his Word daily!  He left it for us!!  Call a friend - yes this means you have to show weakness to your fiends! Prayer - keep a continually line of pray going daily.  Chat with him about everything!  You do not have to be on your knees to be in prayer with him, but I will say on your knees is an amazing time of prayer!  Church - we need fellowship!  We crave this believe it or not!  It is such a time of uplifting and rest!  The more we draw closer to our Heavenly Father, the more we will feel his love and the more we will start seeing ourselves the way he sees us...His daughter!!  He loves you so so so so so (did I say so) much!!  He is here to help guide you and to uplift and encourage and love!!  Open your heart and let him!!!
  

(from the book Letting It Go)  I hope you feel encouraged with this.  I have it taped to my wall in the bathroom right by the mirror!

Flawed and frail and imperfect at times, but deeply beloved.  The apple of His eye.  His priceless mater piece, His precious possession.  Clothed in His righteousness, spotless and pure before Him.  Radiant with His love, His joy, His peace.  Fearfully and wonderfully made.  Gloriously and unique.  Day by day becoming a beautiful reflection of Him.

 

 



Just being real

What do you want to get out of life?  Where do you see your priorities at?  Where do you feel your main focus is? 

If you are a Christian there are some maybe hard realities (at least it is hard for me).  This week in my quiet time (if this is something that you are not doing, I truly ask you give it a try!  You will be amazed at what can come out of giving God 10, 15, 20 or even 30 minutes of your precious time) I hit a hard reality.  Here is what came to me:

How do I become more of you!

How do I stop be fake and truly start living from my heart!

 

I am just being real, this was the conviction God put on my heart the other day.  Then would you know it, He gave me some guidance for this.  Yes they seem like some pretty cut and dry statements but for this old human girl they seem to be my biggest and hardest struggles! 

 

For I want you to understand what really matters, so that you will live pure and blameless lives until the day of Christ's return.

Philippians 1:10 (NLT)

 

This was my daily verse from Bible Gateway after these statements where placed on my heart...God maybe!  Here is what I poured out to God.

 

What is there to truly understand....That Christ Jesus is to be at front and center of our lives!!  When He is not, we put space between Him and us!  Space will lead us to paths that are without Him.  LIFE IS NOT ABOUT US!!!  It's about TELLING/SHOWING/BEING Christ to those around us!  To save them from this sinful world!!

 

Again I am just being real.  This is my journal entry from 7/10/15 and I have to tell you it was a painful morning!  Painful because I am CHOOSING not to want to become more of Him and in doing so I am living a fake life.  It is a reality that is hard to admit.  When we place anything before Him, He is not our focus!  Okay okay okay, we are human but that is not an excuse to mess up.  That is the mercy He gives us because He knows we are human.  But over all, I have to daily make a choice to put Him first and when I start doing that I will become more of Him and will start living a life of truth to those around me.  Oaky okay okay I know!  How do we do this 24/7, with grace!  We will stumble, we will walk down the wrong path, we will focus on the wrong thing...but in the end when we choose to live a life WITH God and DESIRE to have a relationship with God...He gives us grace, picks us up and says today is a new day!

 

"cast our sins into the depths of the ocean"

Micah 7:19 (NLT)

 

He gives us grace and mercy because He loves us and He knows our hearts!!  Where is your heart today...your focus...what are you desiring to become more of?  My heart is breaking more and more each day as God works on it and is being the Potter that He is, in making my heart new for Him!!

 

Always remember "You are enough just as you are"!  He love you deeply that He hurts for you!  He DESIRES you!!  

Reality is...life is hard!

Reality is, life is hard!  If you have friends or even family members and their life is always good than they do have ups and downs!  Sorry but its true!  Life is hard!  Even with my faith my life is so very hard!  But why does life have to have so many ups and downs!  For me many times it is because I make it hard.  I don't like asking for help.  I always try to make sure everyone is happy.  There is always someone who needs something and guess what..I know I can help them!  So in the end, I am usually last.  That is not good!

What do we do then...we must stop and take time for us!  Will this all of a sudden make life super easy and happy, NO!  But in the end it will give us the rest and energy to get back out there.  We must also connect with our faith, there is a perfectly good Bible that a really cool God left us to help us walk this life!  Use it!  Another thing is to talk about our day no matter if it was good or bad.  Don't put on an act because your husband has had a hard day or not be honest with your family when they ask how are you doing because you don't want to burden them.  They love you and they want you to burden them with your day!  They LOVE YOU!  Surround your self with ones who love you!  Then lastly, getting a little bit of exercise in and eating a little bit better.  It is amazing how food can effect us!  Don't laugh, its true!

Now if you start doing all these little things, will your life all of a sudden get oh so better!!  NO!  Let me say it again, Life is hard!  These few steps will help you not to be alone and for you to have a support system.  Everyday will have a little bit more sunshine in it.  When we have those hard days, life won't feel as lonely or we won't feel like we have to hide them.   Life will never stop being hard, we live in a sinful world remember!  But by allowing God to be in it, your family a part of it and surround yourself with the right friendships...it will be a life worth fighting for!

Trust me, this is a daily thing for me something hourly!  I am a mom of three amazing kids and a husband who works his tail off to support us.  My life is daily forever having battles in them!  But to be honest every day I don't focus on my walk with God, it is hard...I'm just being real!  When we desire a relationship with him, there is a hope that begins to grow in us, a hope like no other!  Again, life does not get all of a sudden wonderful, it just has a little bit better lining to it. 

So in the end, we all (especially me) must stop hiding!  Remember LIFE IS HARD!!  BUT, a life surrounded by God, family and amazing friendships will help when life gets less hard and less lonely!   Life is never going to be perfect, but you have an amazing purpose on this earth and don't ever forget that!  Your are amazing!

Work in progress

My name is Heidi and today I have come to the realization that my life must become more!  I have struggle over the last few years on how to be happy and how to have a life centered with God.  So today begins a new journey.  My goal for this Blog is to be as honest as possible and to be able to connect with other and most importantly to share the love of Christ Jesus. 

My life is far from perfect in so many ways.  I am a mom to three amazing kids - two are teenagers and the other is beginning Middle School in August.  So just with parenting there are many ups and downs.  My husband is a Fireman  (this is his full time job) and them works part time finishing pools for a pool company on the side, basically he is not home a lot.  He does his very best to support this family financially, which is very hard at so many times! 

A desire for this blog is to be able for people to connect and share ups and downs...not to bash and put others down.  This life is very hard and we MUST surround ourselves with others who can up lift and connect with us! 

So I ask that you please be patient with me on this journey.  I have a few goals I would like to achieve while on this path. 

1 - Allow God to guide and not to be afraid for where I am lead.
2 - Get a Running Club up and going, this will help me connect with others were I live.
3 - Get this blog up and going.
4 - Begin on organization within my community that will reach out.  I am still working on ideas and how to actually begin this.  I am wanting this to be something that will show the love of Christ and also for my children to become a part of. 

So, welcome to "What is our focus"!  I'm excited for this journey and am ready for God to open my eyes and heart!