This blog might be off the beaten path but again just trying my best to be real and hopefully this will help and encourage some of you ladies out there!
Last night while sitting at our daughters high school volleyball game a sweet friend came over to say hello. Automatically we both asked the question "How are you?". My reply was "I am just really tired". Her response was "You look really tired". She honestly did not mean any ill or bad feelings with her commit. She truly was showing concern ad wanted to know why I looked so very tired. Later that night I truly reflected on our conversation and I asked myself - Why do I look so tired? What have I been doing to myself to look tired?
This is what hit me - I took a break from God. I was letting the downs get to me. We have had over the last few weeks family health ups and downs (on both sides of our families), busy work schedule (not being able to spend time with our family), of course the good old money problems, busy kids schedule, ups and downs at work (bringing it home with you), and honestly time (never enough). Trust me as I write these many things they seem small to what is going on in this world, but we must remember God cares dearly about our ups and downs...they are not small to Him because they are big to us! So honestly I took a break from God and mentally checked out. I let the downs start to get to me. So my way of taking care of this was to stop my quite time, not going to the women's bible study, make up excuses for not getting together with uplifting friends, didn't get my workout in and let my eating go to the way side...do you see the pattern! I thought a break from God would be good an allow me to refocus, seriously who thinks like this! Apparently me!
So today I started my God time again which lead to me wanting to get my run in, wanting to eat good (to feel good), wanting to get work down, wanting to have the house looking nice for my loved ones, wanting to focus on Him in me not me! We can do so much with Him!
(I feel like my blog are all kind of the same but if you really look at life we are always having ups and downs and always battling letting God have them and having peace with them...it is a constant battle that I truly hope one day I can give to Him 100%)
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