Whats on your heart when you wake up?

Today I wanted to share with you from my journal.  This is just a little something that God put on my heart this morning and wanted to share.

For the past two days I have had this is on my heart singing it when I wake up.

 

"At the cross at the cross I surrender my life - I'm in awe of You I'm in awe of You

Here my faith will stand here on solid ground here I bow down here I bow down"

 

It doesn't' take a rocket scientist to tell me what God is placing on my heart.  I have never in my 40 years ever heard God speak.  You hear all these stories from people that actually hear Him!  I use to get rather jealous (even though I knew my life was and has never been connected to God like these dear friends).  But reality is, God speaks to his children in different ways, He use our sometimes weakness and our strengths to get our attention.  And I must say music is a strong hold in my life.  This has not been the first time I have woken up with a song in my head...BUT this is the first time I have waken up (for days in a row) with a song on my HEART!

Thank you Lord Jesus for always taking time for me!

 

 

Now lets back up a few weeks. I have been reading Letting it Go and honestly thought "okay I need to let go of my past"!  Well its funny what God has in store sometimes!  As I began reading this book God put a very heavy thought into my lovely heart "Heidi you have no past issues!  You use your past as an excuse to allow these areas in your life - jealousy and envious" - trust me this hurt a lot!  And honestly after taking a few days of praying on my knees, He was so very right!  But here is the good news -  He can take our weakness and use them for His good!  And over the past two days waking up with this song so heavily on my heart, I feel God truly helping me with these areas.  BUT it is a daily struggle!!  Yes I said DAILY!  We must CHOOSE (the word that is so hard for me) to allow Him help us!  Let go of the control! 

 

I'm sorry this post is kind of all over the place but I truly feel God put it on my heart and I had to share.  Over the past four or five days I have sat to blog and I have had no internet...God...I think so.  He had other plans.  I just truly want to be real and honest.  We all struggle with areas of our lives and that is okay, we just have to remember God loves us and everything that is in our lives He can and He will use!!